The Unending Poem

It's started with I
And follow by YOU
But as it continues
I can't find YOU.

The I is now gone
To where it goes
I don't know
I hope the You still follows
For where, destiny will knows.

A period is coming
To mark the ending
But I hope it's a coma
So there would be no ending.

But when a period is followed by a dot
and another dot
what does it mean?
Is it really the end
or an unsure ending...

My Love Story

They say first love never dies

but for me it's not true.

Because if it is not true love

there will always 2nd, 3rd and fourth too.


And my first love is not my true love and so it is only a past,

that made my mind wiser and also is my heart.


And my true love came by

exceeding my expectation

Because he's not just any guy that got my attention.

He made my mind boggles and my heart throbs like thunder.

He gave me a happy smile and a peace of mind like no other.


I know this is true love

because even a simple "hi" from him makes my heart jump,

and a single day not seeing him made me want to cry.


But my mind is above my heart,

Always so cautious

Telling me not so fast.

"What if he's like the first one?

be cautious save your heart!"


And so I made a stupid decision

testing him and his love,

But at the end I'm the one tested

"He is not like that!"


So my heart overflows with love

and surpass my minds warning.

He became my world

My only true love which is everlasting.


But just like any stories

twist and conflict came by

And so my one true love

gave his farewell,

he said 'goodbye'.


And since it's true love

my world got devastated

My heart shattered in pieces

I don't know how long I can take it.


And thankful if I can say

that my mind is above my heart

And it's keep me telling

"Hey, move on you still have your life!"


I don't know how I survived

without a pulse or a beat in my heart.

Perhaps it's my mind,

I'm living without a heart.


And then our path crossed again

And I felt a small beating

I know it is my heart,

hey it's now throbbing.


And then my mind above my heart

said "What are you doing?"

For the first time,

my heart said

"I don't care as long as I am beating!"


So I disregard my principle,

my pride and my mind warning.

Just to be with him this one more time

'I don't care' as long as I can be with him.


But then again,

here he goes again

telling me to stop.

"Let's just be friend"

he said to me.

Well, how will I react.


I just smile,

an empty smile.

I think my heart

just froze.

My mind above my heart tell me,

"What else could be worst?"


And so I vowed

and conceived

as I accept his

torture truce.


My mind which is above my heart said

"Hey, this is better

friendship is much longer.

Just find another

who will love you much better."


So I did what my mind said

and find some other guy

who loves me more

but it's a mistake

a big mistake

because it made me miserable.


I can't be with someone

who will never give me a happy smile

or one who can't make my heart beats

what more to make it throb.


So I ended being miserable

and promise to myself.

If I can't be with my only true love

Never with someone else

better be his friend forever

at least friendship last longer.


And now my love story end

don't tell me it's not real

because until now I can feel

the throbs in my heart

when I received a simple "hi"

from him and only him.


He's the only one who can make me cry and laugh

at the same time.

The one who gave me nightmares and sweet dreams every night.


But I never expect anything from him as I already decided

that from this day and so on my love story is ended.